update my lj?
is facebook enough public expression, or do i need more room for sentences?
would anyone's life change?

hearing: the fashion - vampire with gold teeth

failed my pregnancy test. no babies yet.

i was just wondering because i've been throwing up for no reason about once a month, which i'm guessing is this year's thing. like that time i would get swollen eye or tongue or bottom of foot or hip for seemingly no reason when i was 19.

i like to think it's because i've gotten used to throwing up if i have too much to drink, so my body is just used to rejecting stuff now. not that i'm a big drinker, but being a light weight sometimes means two drinks are too many.


so that's my physical life.


i've been really damned busy. can't believe i had considered taking some classes for fun this fall. between work, wifery, and band, i don't even have the time for my friends. helps save money, though.

my Peets got robbed. i wasn't there (thank god, because my smart mouth would have got somebody stabbed), but it changed the business a lot. work is harder than anything ever, but still fun and satisfying. except those moments where i realise what a long day i have ahead of me.

The Red Guts are coming along. we have another Kimo's show tomorrow night. should be amazing. we have one more guitarist, and we might have a bassist by the end of the week. i'm going to ask for only four days a week of work to help give me more free time.

saw Yeah Yeah Yeahs for the third time ever. so amazing! new album is great. i've got a record player now, thanks to Bob, who is visited in sacramento. i keep buying records. right now i have 7:

strokes is this it
yyy it's blitz
crystal castles
neutral milk hotel in the the aeroplane over the sea
arcade fire funeral
neko case middle cyclone
mia kala

way rad.
anyway. just wanted to update, since i'd been meaning to for a while.

i miss everyone.

feeling: relieved
hearing: yeah yeah yeahs - zero

feeling: accomplished
hearing: courtesy of the red guts

some samples from june 30th:





fanime:


anime expo:

i'm standing on the brink of my adult life.


it's real scary, but whatever.

emotions are slightly frayed at this point, all copper wires and battery fluid and indifference.


on thursday i moved from 125 palm ave. to 1290 20th ave.
on friday i left for fanime with Jayne's friend boB and his girlfriend Kelly. boB and i have become good friends over the course of creating my steampunk equipment for fanime 2009.
on friday night i left fanime sitting in a small car on my sister's lap. woke up at 5 in the morning to the sounds of my parents having sex on the couch in the same room.
on saturday i graduated from university, with my entire close family, plus additional signficant others and a nephew in the stands, scanning the purple gowns for me. Jaron had work, but he made it to dinner.
on sunday, i woke up to the same disturbing sounds, and went to fanime again. it was an excellent day. i spent it wielding a giant wrench and an a sleeve that functioned as a time travel device and firearm.
on monday i left fanime and let Jaron break up with me without divorcing me or moving out from my apartment.

a few weeks back i dressed up as a giant piplup for 25 dollars an hour.


but i'm still looking for a real job. being an adult, you gotta have a full time job. you gotta make rent without your dad paying for it. i've applied at starbucks twice, peets, metropark, urban outfitters, trader joes, american rag, a toystore on haight, and star games. times are tuff.

a few weeks back i helped All Ages and shameless self productions as they shot a video for the song "Come On" and on our break we made this:
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which is pretty funny and dumb.

i'm still working for shameless. some time soon it's going to bring the big bucks, but till then, it's more of a hobby that i get paid for from time to time. with them, The Red Guts was going to play at the red devil lounge june 14th, but instead it's going to be just me and ashone as Apt. 12, singing The Future is the Past etc. should be good.

not sure what's going to happen with Jaron. he's so unhappy all the time. life is hard.

sitting: again? you bet.
feeling: anxious
hearing: Apt. 12 - Goodbye

no one in my family has died in six days!

auntie bea is dead. lizabeth the dog is also dead. grandma has lung cancer. my life feels like a very slow horror movie with cancer instead of chainsaws and old age instead of zombie epidemics. after a while you stop counting bodies and you stop noticing the plot. you know, this isn't a good analogy. forget i said anything.

ugh.

3 pages for tokyo
6 pages for women
5 pages for austen
7 pages for food
3 pages for work in progress
=
24 pages of shit to do before next tuesday.

happy cesar chavez day, which is spent making snickerdoodles and playing streetfighter ii. 

having heard that a band has dropped out of the running, Ashon Sylvester insisted that the two of us do a three song set based on our rad song-writing capabilities. that is, i play like two notes on the bass, he composes an entire song, and then i make up the words. it's very good fun and his roomate is our biggest fan.
so now my throat hurts.
me and jayne made another desperate attempt at forever 21 last night. she managed to get a few things, and i almost got a very dusty knit hat that looked like someone had found it behind some boxes in the storage room and then said, "hm.. two dollars?"
shop life is tuff.

if i'm lucky, i'll get to do a pokemon promo. no matter how miserable that will be, it'll still have the idea of funnnnn!

5 days until the show!

hearing: loney, dear - airport surroundings

show for april 5th at the rockit room: put together. been out nearly every night passing out pretend matchbooks with all the info inside. promoting this thing to no end. after practice yesterday, was handed several hundred posters and flyers for All Age's from Japan with Love show on april 7th. so now i'm promoting one thing for work, and another for the band.

the band is The Red Guts in the end, and things are going well.

plus of promoting something else is going to see Sparta Locals tonight at the independent for free. neat! i only know that song Sanpo, but i dig it muchly. 


Jayne's friend Kevin is in town and that's really fun. the day before yesterday, we went on a trip to north beach that turned out to be a set up by the russian mob. after a very awkward lunch, made additionally awkward by my nervous tic grammar correction, we were free to leave the restaurant. nice friends, Seattle.


looks like a bright sunny day.

hearing: animal collective - reverend green